trains, trains, and more trains: Geneva to Beaune.

the little girl squeals with excitement as she enters the train platform, her face jubilant as her scan reveals the train is mostly empty. follwoing her is a smartly dressed man in business trousers, motioning to the seats at the front of the train. they promptly sit.

my stomach pangs again with emptiness, the roaring growl felt deep in my abdomen. I take off my felt hat and lay it across the seat beside me. three long, meditative breaths later, I am jolted by the excitement coming from the front row.

blonde waves frame her face, her hands flying in conversation form a an innocent bubble around her. she dons a green Brooklyn t-shirt, an aerospace rip-sack flies from her back. her French is intoxicating. mundane words in English curl into calligraphy mid-air, dusting the reflective windows of the stagnant coach.

the train begins to move, revealing the gray sky of the city of mountains and lakes. we pass centuries old city buildings with wrought iron verandas and gargoyles. a scene from Zagreb enters my mind: rich tapestries, gothic turned renaissance type buildings, an Eastern European flair.

the seasons have begun to change, yet the leaves have not yet turned. only a small cap of snow lines the ridge in the near distance. shades of greens engross the valleys and forests we pass on our way to Lausanne. I try to take a photo but all I see is a mirror.

the graying father quizzes his daughter: capitals of countries, continents, animals, names, dances… and even the spice girls? I need to learn more French. his engagement is soft and loving, her reaction when she does not know an answer quizzical. a mix of English, German, and French escape the father’s lips. there are no devices involved, just strips of paper, hand motions, and conversation. a sweet moment that neither probably realize so rare and pure. she can’t be more than eight.

across the aisle the lake appears in the window, revealing a breathtaking view of the mountains. I wish I would have sat on the other side of the train.

as soon as I boarded the flight from London to Geneva, the ambiance and mood shifted.  it was as if I emerged from a bright, high end mall to a gray, cold cathedral. Geneva airport was even dull, the only highlight a flower shop and bakery on the route to the trains.

at Swiss immigration a struggling British rock band loudly entered the void. carrying guitars and cymbals and other padded equipment, their cockney accents and barely audible English filled the space. no one guessed what they were thinking, reminding me again of what a mentor and friend recently told me. “Give them a chance to earn your story. Revel in the beauty of what is not said.” my brain laughed.

after 45 minutes of the father daughter duo, I finally realized he was teaching her English. our culture needs more of this, y’all.

we reached Lausanne, a bramble of tracks and trains extending through small towns and cities as far as the eye could see. with only an hour to wait, I decided to engulf the train culture and drink beers by the tracks… no celiac judgement allowed.

another 2 hours train ride to Dijon and I was close to the home stretch. Swiss made Gamay in tow, I was almost free. rain pellets struck the sides of the carriage as the steel snake meandered through the mountains.  

I arrived in Beaune late, bathed in cold, and walked to the house on Rue Richard.  the villa was full of life, smiles, and empty bottles.  

my #sommwifevacay has begun.

waves without a place to break

my tarot card for grief reads as a blocked heart chakra: love without a place to go.  It’s comical how often it appears in my array, the envious hues of jade surrounding a veiled woman in agonizing tears.  

while the card has not appeared for a while, it always lingers in my mind.  even now.  

a few days ago we boarded an ocean liner with the best intent and purpose, our summer vacation wrapped in a carribean headscarf of flowers and sugary rum drinks.  

the steel ship is robust, bombastic in its offerings, yet humble in its service.  sommkid has found bliss in the vast offerings of childhood memories, endless sun, and delectable cakes.  she glimmers like the reflection of the water beneath us.  

the sommelier, in all his capacity for happiness in European landscapes, has struggled to find his why. he puts on his best game face, though, resulting in a half cocked smile in cream colored yberras.  nevertheless, he finds the best wine possible onboard, and ensures sommkid is well fed and well mannered.

the main dining room is reminiscent of the Titanic, with an inverse, bilateral winding staircase whimsically chasing guests to the main floor.   renderings of Rembrandts and Michelangelos don the walls, while a brilliant, cascading  chandelier grasps the ceiling.  it is the epitome of opulence. 

the waiters are attentive and kind, remembering our names, our taste in wine, and our peculiar penchants.  two servers per meal grace us at any time, unless we opt for a quick poolside snack.

the stateroom is ordinary, yet surprisingly spacious with many storage areas to stow my usual overpacked luggage. the winds from the Gulf blow through our sliding doors and into our living space, providing a warm and fresh and salty sense that we are just small beings in the vast seas.  

looking at the endless waters before us, I am reminded of the crying woman.  waves fall in the distance, white foam cascading into the next crest, and then into the next, and into the next… the waves go on and on.  love without a place to go, and waves without a place to break.  a perfect caption, it seems.